Post by @mm@beige.party

I'm an addict. I know I'm an addict. I use cannabis as a crutch and coping mechanism.

The problem is, I don't *want* to give up cannabis. I don't feel happy when I'm sober, I feel miserable. I've literally been piping mad before and after taking a few puffs I'm like "oh, all better."

I enjoy it so much that I used to imagine if I were to ever get a tattoo, it would be a pot leaf (but instead of green it would be filled with the bi pride colors, the infinity symbol, and both cat and dog paw prints) -- my point being that it's something I love so much I would be willing to indelibly mark my body to commemorate it.

I'm not sure I'm capable of, nor desirous of coping in this world without my cannabis and nicotine pacifiers.

#Cannabis #Addiction #MentalIllness #ADHD #BPD #CopingMechanisms

#copingmechanisms #addiction #mentalillness #bpd #cannabis #adhd

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PaNel82cz

@panel82cz@mstdn.party 1 hr. ago

@mm Take it easy..
... You're not alone

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ARGVMI~1.PIF

@argv_minus_one@mastodon.sdf.org 1 hr. ago

@mm

Is your use of cannabis causing you severe harm? Because an addiction by definition severely harmful.

For example, playing video games is not addiction, but playing video games compulsively to the point that it ruins your life is an addiction.

Melancholic Mediocrity :v_bi:

@mm@beige.party 1 hr. ago

@argv_minus_one That's a good question. I know I'm floundering in life right now but I don't know whether that's attributable to cannabis or severe and untreated BPD and ADHD.

Or maybe some combination of the three.

I think my chronically poor diet (primarily cereal, sandwiches, and fast food) and lack of exercise probably aren't helping either.

ARGVMI~1.PIF

@argv_minus_one@mastodon.sdf.org 49 min. ago

@mm

Lousy diet and inadequate exercise will do unpleasant things to you, but I don't think it does *that* to you.

Untreated mental health issues certainly can, though. But…isn't cannabis often used as a treatment for mental health issues?

CheapPontoon

@CheapPontoon@beige.party 1 hr. ago

@mm drug companies want you to see it as addiction. I see it as alt medicine.

Melancholic Mediocrity :v_bi:

@mm@beige.party 1 hr. ago

@CheapPontoon It's certainly less harmful than a lot of "legal" medications and habits

Blue Emu

@blueemu@shakedown.social 53 min. ago

@mm @CheapPontoon If it does you more good than harm, then my attitude is who cares? I fucking love cannabis (even though I can't use it a lot anymore).

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@mm@beige.party 46 min. ago

@blueemu @CheapPontoon That's a good point. A lot of medications for mental illness have utterly dreadful side effects, and (in my opinion) cannabis is more effective than a lot of medications for mental illness

Melancholic Mediocrity :v_bi:

@mm@beige.party 1 hr. ago

(It's a shame I'm getting up there in years. Getting a tattoo now would be like painting a mural on one of those above-ground pools from Walmart that's been sitting out in the sun, empty and half collapsed, for half a decade)

Blue Emu

@blueemu@shakedown.social 51 min. ago

@mm Also, I say get the tattoo and anyone who doesn't like how it looks can suck it.