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this account still mostly write-only.
inverted to -/?, maybe -/-, hard to tell due to weird sleep. increasing amplitude & frequency of oscillation is a direct result of weird sleep.
I never got my face consistently above water with 2wks uncomplicated catsitting. after 10mo with no recovery it wasn't enough.
I did net about 10 days of semi-productive haphazhard hyperfocus (crank on one area while 17 others fall to the floor, some on fire) but it looks like that may be just about done.
I also really need to see the doctor about a few little things before I potentially lose Medicaid, but it's just another task in a priority queue of hundreds if not thousands, many of which are on fire or smoldering, anyway I haven't managed to arrange it yet 🤷
I have enough trouble maintaining the equilibrium I so desperately need even in a near-ideal scenario because my body & mind do not generate their own rhythm. when you put me in a situation which actively undermines my attempts to substitute skills use for the positive static stability most human beings get for free, well then I am just right & proper fucked. I have been trying to adapt for a decade and I am maxxed out, thank you for coming to my TED talk.
I have two more ~2wk pet/house sitting gigs, one this month + one next, but both are double booked and with a dog at one of the houses so recovery value will be slim to none unless I somehow get very lucky with it.
my main looming thing is figuring out how to try to stay on Medicaid. I already lost SNAP at least temporarily because I was too fucked up to get the paperwork in by the re-cert deadline on the 31st of last month. I've been hoarding food though so that's all set for a while.