I just realized a thing:
I got in the building. I planted a malicious device that didn't go anywhere because ports were off. I got financial docs, an old backup disk, and access to a device in LAN that didn't go anywhere mostly because time was limited and I did not bring the right thing.
How successful was I really, in that scenario?
@m4iler Man do I know this feeling. Imposter syndrome hits different when your job actually IS to be an imposter.
When we're training or onboarding someone to do this kind of work, there's a thing we say to them over and over until it becomes like a mantra.
You are not the one being tested. You are the one performing the test.
It's so easy to look at things you weren't able to accomplish and feel like that means you failed, but THAT'S imposter syndrome. "Success" in this job means "I showed up and accurately emulated an attacker." That's it. As long as you can look at yourself and honestly say you did that, then you succeeded at your job.
It doesn't matter if you got full DA access on day 1 or got thrown out the second you walked in the door. You showed up, you did the work, you performed a thorough and accurate test. You succeeded.