Dear panic disorder:
Get all the way fucked
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fuck off, Greg
I apologize to anyone actually named “Greg” who is following me
I do need a different name for my negative self-talk though, I have several good friends named Steve/Steven/Stephen and I don’t want them to catch strays
Apple marketing executive: can we market the Apple Watch based on how you can finally track your panic attack in real time? That is something that’ll help people calm down, right?
I guess it’s a good thing I woke up early because there’s stuff I needed to get done before my trip that ended up taking longer than expected, and now that I’m done with all it I guess I can call a Lyft.
Travel stress on top of health stress on top of persistent thanatophobia, I am having a good day /s
Made it to the airport but the wheelchair access thing is a mess
The whole airport is a mess
anyway the wheelchair service was helpful, although I don't think it'd have made much difference if I didn't use it. Also my handler was super grouchy and just kind of treated me like a battering ram? it was weird. it did make me very aware of just how unaware most people are in the airport though
anyway I'm glad I did get to use this service. highly recommended if you have fatigue or balance issues and don't mind being treated like an invalid for half an hour.
my perceptions feel super wonky today though so like uh, maybe I wouldn't have been good to walk. everything feels both very close and very far away.
although that's probably just me coming out of the panic attack haze
@fluffy the PERFECT use for this emoji, finally! 
also, maybe you could call it Alan and think about this every time to neutralize:
Alan,Alan, Alan, Alan, Alan, Ow, Ow, Steve, Steve, Steve...Hey, Hey, Hey...
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@fluffy god, wouldn't it be nice if it were that easy?
I used to call my panic disorder “Greg.” Maybe I need to bring that back.
(I also called my negative self-talk “Steve.”)