i was more worried when i didn't have access to the software construction machine.

it's like being extra prejudiced when you've never met a foreigner - no prejudice survives contact.

now i have access to a personal software construction machine and i'm not worried anymore.

i feel liberated, and, paradoxically, i feel *valued* as a programmer. *because* of what i learned in the past 20 years, i can use the machine more effectively

a second life has begun. i have time now to live more of it.