After mourning the slow loss of a friendship, and the associated group, I'm reminding myself that I do in fact have other local friends. (sometimes it's hard to see these things when the weasels are at the wheel).
Planned a photoshoot and hot pot dates with girlfriends.
Have a board game day with my oldest friend, her spouse and their cousin on the calendar. Plus now we're planning a craft hang!
Letting go of what doesn't serve means there's room for what does.
A lot of this comes from wanting to fit with a certain group for various reasons.
As a person who has struggled with relationships her whole life, and has been abandoned over and over again... It's hard for me to look at a relationship and be the one to say no.
It's a scarcity mindset. Plus a belief that it's always my fault/responsibility.
And while I've done a lot of work to be okay going without vs going with the bad... Old patterns and habits are deeply ingrained.